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Tuesday, August 05, 2008 ♥17:49
i feel so messed up now.
i have to make a stand.
but either way, i have people hating me.
and god knows how much i hate people hating me.
well, maybe i have to.
maybe its the only way out.
is this second thoughts.
or have i chosen the right path for happiness.
im clueless.
im confuse.
maybe at times i care too much about other feelings.
and maybe sometimes.
i care too much about mine.
can i just do something that will make me and another party happy?
why is it always biased?
why is it that.
whenver i turn to.
or whatever i read,see or hear etc.
it has always got something to do with what im experiencing how.
i terasaaa.
CAN I JUST LET GO?


girl,
the few minutes with you meant alot.
yes, i pour everything on you.
and im glad you understand.
thnks alot.
i love you, and i will always be there standing next to you against all odds.
haaah.
its nice you know,
both of us are against th same person.
haaaah.
yes.
i will alwaysLOVE you girlfriend(:


girlfriend.
sitting with you gerek.
and i realised, you are indeed a good friend.
and good l
kita bestfriend k?
I LOVE YOU girlfriend.


i cnt believe this happens.
i dunnoe what is wrong with me nowadays.
i feel weird(?)
i feel lost.
i feel crushed.
why does all this have to happen this fast.
though i know its th only way
but it could be something else.

dont you realise your words are like daggers that pierce through my heart.
i know i deserve it.
but why to that extent?
at the end of it all.
i was expecting something.
maybe a sorry,
or a word or two to lift my spirits back up.
but you didnt.
instead you just walk away.
again,i deserve it.
but why to that extend.
its torturing me.
yes your words really pierce through my heart.
straight to my soul.
i can still feel th impact.
yes.
it hurts so much.
to know a gazillion people are going against me.
yes i know
i deserve it.
i mean.
i seriously am acting like a bitch.
but why cant i make my own stand
and stand up for my own rights.
i mean everyone has rights.
kaan?
i mean seriously.
come to think of it.
eventhough i hurt people so much.
i lie,yes i lie.
i bitch ard.
but not to th extend to all go against me.
i dont like this feeling.
how i wish it could just go awaaaaay.
i feel like killing myself.
like ending life.
so i wont feel such pain.
maybe you;re wondering why should i take this so seriously.
just let go.
but it aint easy.
i have to one to turn to now.
because you said it meant to be a secret.
so yes i keep it.
but its killing me inside.
SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME, for goodness sake.
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

im disappointed in yoo.
yes.
you influence me.
but you aint confessing.
im seriously very issapointed.

im sorry.
but i have to do it.
i know both are at fault.
im sorry
but i have to do it.
i know its like betraying.
im sorry.
i shouldnt have told it to anyone.
but this time.
i have no way out.
im sorry to put you in that state.
i know im cruel.
i know im a bitch.
im sorry.
i dont consider your feelings.
im superduper sorry.

how could you.
i trusted you.
and you did that?
just to defend yourself.
i hate you.
yes.
i hate you.
and seriously.
i dont expect you to do such a thing to me.
after all...
ugh~!
i mean
HOW COULD YOU!
i trusted you
and you betray me.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU.

sis,
you are the best.
i could count on you.
you;re not only a pain in the arse.
but you, are a great listener.
who always listen
and have cute reactions.
I LOVE YOU SISTER.
i will always be there for you when you need me.
dont worry,sister.
i will keep my words.
i will always remember every little secret we shared.
I LOVE YOU LITTLE SISTER.
you are the best!(:



im down.
i want runaway.
i want get lost.
i want to be free.
i want to be someone else.
i want to change.
i want support.
i want love.
i want history back.
i want the old Syarifah Azrinatul Nurulhanna back.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

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